so, why do i keep making new blogs? who knows. it's probably just this feeling i keep having to "start over". i've been hecka thinking lately, but time goes by hella fast. my childhood is slowly slipping away, and honestly, i don't wanna grow up. being a kid is the easiest life's gonna get, but little did we know that when we were kids. at often times, i thought life was hard when i didn't know what toy to get, i was left alone at home for the first time, and going to school for the first time. those were hard obstacles back then, but now that i think about it, it's nothing. sometimes i just wish i could go back to those days, life was good. i had a nice bond with my parents and sisters, but idk. everything's different now. i'm trying to hold onto my parents right now the best i can, but it's hard. i just need to take notice of what i have now because i have no idea what will and can come in my way in the future.
i'm confused to the max to my friends. you can basically say i'm annoyed of like 97% of them right now. the problem is, when you drift away from people and bounce back after a month, i take notice they've changed, and change i usually almost never like because eh. it's hypocritical because everyone changes, and most of the time it's you changing. i'm just trying to keep my distance from people right now, tired of worrying about this stuff when friends shouldn't be like a top priority right now. i have worse stuff to deal with.
confirmation started last week. i'm kinda excited. i feel like my faith is constantly going up and down for unknown reasons, and i just really wanna keep it at a stronghold right now. and yay, 8 month break from yfc. i honestly need that right now, because yfc isn't the same as before and i miss it. everything is so clique-y there and there's favoritism, hypocritical stuff, i dunno. i just need time out thinking about it.
school is okay, i'm trying to keep my grades like #1 priority right now. working to keep my grades up just for my mom.
i got rid of my myspace, and it took like a whole weight off my stress. myspace is full of gossip and drama, and nosey comment readers -_- and since when does the way your friends act around you have to depend on top friends?! enough is enough, screw myspace. it's annoying how people use myspace for 75% of their communication with friends, i think it's more real if you talk to people in real life. well yeah, sometimes your busy so you use myspace or aim, but i really think majority should be real life. AIM is okay since no one can really look at it, but myspace, nah. it's gotta go. besides, i'm getting less distracted from my homework without myspace.
i really have this urge to go shopping and stock up on winter clothes, i also need to get rid of shirts i don't want or need. and yet again, my shirts are becoming a mess in my closet and they're ready to topple over, and i needa fix that. HOWEVER, i need to get a bunch of sleep! i'm lacking so much sleep my eye bags are horrible!
