i believe.

"nothing is impossible."

those words have been stuck in my head ever since we started practicing for it. i think it's a message, but i have yet to figure out the reasning of why.

tomorrow's monday, a weekday. ever since my summer embarked, my weekdays have been occupied by practices with my second family. tomorrow, no more!

no more falling and having people laugh at me
...and vice versa.
no more complaining.
no more sweating.
no more redo's.
no more 5-6-7-8's (Hahaha)
no more whining of thirst and walking (or even driving) to the liquor store to get arizona
no more practice! =(

but yeah, like liza said in confirmation which should apply for this, it's not the end but the beginning. besides, at least its not the end of yfc! yeeeeee =) i'm back Jesus. thank you!!!! i'm still in wonder and awe.

rising of a rhapsody

2 weeks of practices crammed together freakin' paid off! i had hella fun doing this concert! i wish there was a 2nd show =( not that many people showed up, but it's all good, i'm pretty sure we still made a bunch of money because people bought tickets and just didn't go. probably because of pacquiao. but whatevar, i think experiencing the concert was better than watching it, 'cause we already know what it's gonna be!

but forreal, God hella left me speechless today. i haven't been to yfc in a long time, seriously. yes i've missed it, but everytime i tried to come back, the moment just didnt seem right for me. but when it got to worship today, my voice, my knees, my soul just fell weak. it's like He took control of me and i've realized how many rollercoasters i've had with my faith and i really want this to be the restart of a growing faith. i'm hella in love right now, with God! nothing is impossible, forreal. putting a concert together in 2 weeks, losing your faith then getting it back, being speechless by God, it's not impossible! Seriously, I'm not really a dancer or anything but I'm willing to put power in God using me as an instrument to spread his word and love.

i'm so freakin' speechless and i'm on that natural high right now. all my praises go to you God!!!!

ps: grades were..
english - B
pe - A-
spanish - B
hentschke - C
geometry - B
jewelry - A

disappointed for biology.. my GPA went down to like 3.126 :( i got a B on all my finals except for bio, i got a D on that =X

tomorrow!

Concert's finally tomorrow! 2 weeks of hella practice is about to pull together and finish off! Can't wait for it to be over so I can sleep in peace! Crossing my fingers this will be a success. Conference is coming my way :D

Crunch Time

Concert is in 6 days. We're about done with the dances, but just need to clean them up. Majorly. We also need to get costumes ready, and sets about down. Pretty excited, crossing my fingers that this concert is a success so my registration fee for Conference is completely covered. BTW, I'm going to Conference! I'm really happy, but kinda disappointing that I'm going the year in which my "relationship" with CFC-Youth isn't as strong as it used to. But it's okay, it can change =)

Today was pretty fun. Some of the BASIC came over to work on the set and to practice the dance, after that, we had some pizza, Rockband, Cry Wolf, Hide and Seek, and Spud. However, just when I was starting to have a lot of fun playing Spud, I run on the curb and slide and scrape my knee and the skin part below my knee. It's pretty ugly I guess, and it stings like a bee ;| Now if I wear shorts, I have some ugly ass scar/bandaids.

It's 1:14am and I'm watching Clifford... maybe I'll grab a midnight snack then head to sleep. Hope summer is great for everyone!!

Pooped.

So far, my summer has been alright but I'm pooped! I've been waking up early to go to practices for the concert (in which I am not singing, but dancing). We're rushing to learn these dances and it's pretty funny watching others fall and mess up but yeah. We gotta get this done. I'm sure it'll pay off in the end.

I'm really doing my best to help out with this concert. I wanna go to Conference more than you know =( I am $160 dollars away from that beautiful plane ticket but who knows, it might get expensive. =|

AHHHHH!

Sleeping-in.

Sleeping-in feels so good.

But at the same time, it's a b*tch.

When I wake up at 12:00pm or later, it feels like I wasted a day with potential of having fun.

Booo.

Passing me by.

Hellooooo summer. One year of high school down, three more to go. People say it will go by fast, but right now, not really. By the time I reach the peak of Senior year though, I'll probably change my mind.

Reading all these incoming freshmen's blogs hella make me remember about my eighth grade last year... it was awesome. I'm gonna miss being a freshman (kinda), but in a way I'm relieved we're not gonna be looked down upon as much just because we're freshmen.

Yet... something's gotten me down this week. I feel like I'm trapped in this hole, finding myself trapped with a complete shadow of sadness over. Something's weighing my heart down, I honestly don't know what it is. State of depression? Nah. I don't know...

Here's the exit.

St. John's Confirmation Class of 2008. This whole class has been off to a rocky start, actually just a rocky year. It never really hit us until retreat which is right before our Confirmation. We've all been on a journey together on this crazy highway with twists and turns, and in the end it turned out smooth.

Soon enough, tomorrow, we'll be hitting that exit. No more Friday nights classes! Sure, some of us will come back to help out, but not everyone will you know. I hope that most people will join YFC though. This isn't the end of the journey -- it's the beginning.

Oh, SJB Confirmation c/o 2008, I love you guys so much and will miss you! We better have hella bondings after! >;) PICTURE MANIA TOMORROW!

3 effing days until summer and end of freshman year! the studying is stressing me out because this time i'm not feeling confident about how i will do. these days are going by soooooooo slow. today i went to the beach with cousins and sisters on a school night and it was fun <3 love them!

oh mother

day by day, my sadness takes over me. my mother... she smokes heavily and no matter how much my sisters and i beg her to stop she doesn't give a shit. sometimes i've even broken into tears because it kills me to see her smoke as much as she does, but it continues to have no effect on her, for it just angers her.

her coughs are what breaks my heart even more. her lungs are getting weaker and weaker. my mom ceases to care what my family thinks.

on the inside i just wanna cry and break down, but i need to keep my head up. at least i still have a mom, so i need to be thankful.

it's just really hard. Lord, i'm letting you take control of this madness. Let go and let God.....

please keep my mom in your prayers... =/