damn dude, I just need to stop real quick and take a breather. It's been a while since I've actually blogged. School started 2 weeks ago and I can say I haven't been starting off well, and this ain't me. To say I haven't changed would clearly be a lie, because I know myself I have changed a lot ever since entering college.
A couple of events that occurred last week was definitely a wake up call. Sure, it was fun and all, but it made me reflect back to what kind of crap I'm getting myself into. I definitely need to control myself... I'm lucky I've had friends around who have put up with my shit and took care of me, and even tried to stop me. Definitely put myself in an awkward position, but I guess it's only awkward if you make it awkward. I kinda don't regret it, but at the same time, it's not right. As a psychology major (stupidly said, but true), I've come to an understanding that the reason why I behave the way I am when I've had a little too much to drink is because I'm deprived. Deprived of being able to feel how it's like to be loved. At the same time, I need to stop this because this is not what I'm looking for, and I'm definitely giving myself a bad name. I'm not like that... Cris-ann about 3 years ago was not like this at all. Just in conclusion, I know my limits, but lately I've been choosing to pass it. I need to stop passing my limits.
