After having being placed in this beautiful place you call Earth for 15 years, I've began to think about the person I am today. I've grown from the girl who used to be too shy to shake peoples' hands and say "Peace be with you." at the church, to a girl who wants to shake every person's hand, in hopes of creating new friendships and bring smiles to others. I used to sit around, whine about things not going my way, but I've learned to get up and take what changes I want into action. My faith and beliefs with God has skyrocketed, and my life would be totally different if that didn't happen. I torture myself by depriving myself of sleep and struggle to stay awake at school everyday. I like to listen to the kind of music with the kinda mood where you can just lay under a tree and watch the world pass you by. I oftenly am too lazy and tired to care what I'm wearing and what you think, as long as I'm comfortable. I'd rather dress warm/comfortably than look nice any day. I know my rights from wrong, and I'm not afraid to express it. I feel like I have so many things to smile about when I'm walking or sitting around, so don't think I'm weird if I get all happy and smile-y at random times (= Laughter is one of my most favorite things in the whole entire world. I believe I'm good at multitasking and getting work done fast. I have yet to find my talent, and I know I'm not a great singer/dancer, but I don't care whatchuu think! Addicted to texting/phonecalls, and I prefer hot weather over freezing. I wear "Jesus Slippers" and don't care what you think about those either. Typical outfit? I usually just throw on a pair of jeans, random shirt, and a cardigan. Gotta admit, I get irritated easily. I dislike my skin, I have too many scars from eczema or falling =( I've gone through so many hobbies/sports/obsessions, and I have so many things I want to do in life but have yet to make it happen.

But damn, to make it simple, my name is Crisann and I'm HELLA blessed.

martes

Chill classes, chill day. I don't like where I sit in chem, on the side with all my friends on the other side. Booo. Today, my World History was hecka hard, I think I did bad on it. I FELL ASLEEP DOING IT TOO, haha. I was reading a passage and I didn't get it so I kept reading it over and over again, and I just didn't know the answer, so I just stared at it then fell asleep. Whatever -_-

Leadership, we were talking about parties and dancing and stuff. Funny stuff, but I want a party with all of them there! I've grown some bonds with some of the kids in there, sucks that it's only happening now because some of them will be graduating in 3 months! :(

Anyways, I'm kinda excited for elections coming up, I have ideas. But anyways, vote...

-Mariel Soriano for Junior Class President
-Crisann Lizardo for Junior Class Vice President
-Courtney Caglia-Hilty for Junior Class Secretary
-Kevin Miranda for Junior Class Treasurer

I'm excited if we all get to work together again, this year, I really believe our officers were strong and on point, and it might be quite bitter for me if they got replaced. :( I am determined to help them, especially since one of them has a handful of competitors on their plate. I have good reasons on why you guys should re-elect/elect us, just ask (=

Yes, I know what I want.

Fresh.

Trojan Olympics is out of the way, and now walking around school, I feel like I have a whole lot of weight and pressure off my chest, forreal. I feel so free now! No more worries, except now I have my class elections packet and I'm ready to take on going on my 3rd year as 2011's Vice President. There's a reason why I love what I do for my class, and one of the main reasons is our spirit and my class inspires me so much.

Anyways, in 0 period, everyone was just talking about Trojan Olympics. Mr. Zamudio said in his book, it should of been Juniors 1st, Sophomores 2nd, Seniors 3rd, Freshmen 4th, but whatevs! Randy and Juan are funny, I like hanging out with them during 0 period. I know you guys are eventually gonna read this because you guys always mention my blogs.

"ATTENTION, WOULD ALL ASB AND CLASS OFFICERS PLEASE REPORT TO THE GYM" was the announcement during 1st period. I already felt trouble. We had to mop and wipe the floor/bleachers of the baby powder the Seniors left from Trojan Olympics, couldn't see why they couldn't do it!

Had Wingstop afterschool, but I'm pretty beat. Fresh start, just what I needed. Just like taking a new whiff of air, but I need to catch up on sleep. I'm going to take a nap for the first time in 4 weeks (=

1. Is there something wrong you're not telling me? I hear all this sh*t you're talking, why don't you. just saying it to my face? So stupid.... let's talk about it k?
2. Please.. don't think that way. It really burns a hole in my heart to hear you say that.
3. Yay! I missed you! =)
4. Blah, I don't know what to think about you anymore.
5. Thanks for saving me last night guys. Always the bestt!
6. You drew hella attention to me, I didn't not want that.. AT ALL.
7. Thanks for giving me all this advice and helping me, I guess we have the same situations or whatevs, but yeah, you're awesomee.
8. Lots of laughs with you!
9. I keep switching between you and them.. AHH.
10. I'm glad we're starting to get closer! Kinda.

Okay

Sick of it. I don't know what's going on. I'm so confused & I'm tired of this.

I don't know what to do, give up? Let it pass me by? Your actions are screwing things up because I don't know whatsup anymore..

I wish you the best, I guess.

Just wanted to thank Bryan for helping me out, gah.

Trojan Olympics

To me what was supposed to be a fun Spirit Week was more like a Hell Week to me, but now it's over and I probably have a million pounds of pressure, stress, and work off my chest. =)

Yesterday was a stressful day indeed, I woke up at 7am instead of 5:30am, having to miss 0 period. Trying to find decorations that seemed lost, making last minute adjustments/decorations, then having to attend/help at both rallies which was exhausting. Then came the balloon arch where we were faced with the trouble with a stingy small helium tank -_- Afterschool, decorations. This is where all my plans and everything had to come together. I must admit, I did get really irritated with a million people yelling my name and asking me different questions all at the same time. We finished fast, and it looked really nice, so it was all good.

Went home, got ready, got dropped off. Team meeting, pumped it upppp! Then it was the real deal, it seemed really unreal though, like I seriously couldn't believe the big day already came. As a class officer, seeing your class come together and just cheer is one of the reasons why our hearts get so big and why we do what we do =) We did our dance, and for the first time, I didn't forget any moves and I didn't even get to practice that day -_- I do have a feeling I went too fast at some points in time though. Games were intense, some just wanted to make you smack yourself though like grr. 3-Legged Race! Me and Jessica started hecka good but gah, blahblahblah, and Courtney and Guadalupe almost caught up but it's okay. Tug-o-War, killed by Seniors, at least we got to kill the freshmen. Pyramid, yay! I got confused when everyone started yelling during it though, haha wtf.

But all in all, we got 1st in Spirit, Pyramid, and Decorations! Good job everyone (= 2nd place overall, because Seniors/Juniors tied for first. We were all talking about if we won some of our games against them last night, the outcome of winners would of been different, but whatever, we'd rather have 2nd than drop down to 3rd. The winners truly deserved it.

I'm glad to have met so many new people and get closer to new and old faces. The laughter and fun we had at "Q-Cup" was so priceless, and I'll always remember it. Maybe I'll miss those (not), and I apologize for the times I have to b*tch because no one would listen up ^_^ But yeahh, I really love my class :D Celebration with them always at Denny's, like always. Oh, and Happy 16th Birthday Kevin Miranda.


1st place decorations! (=


and first place pyramid! Woo!



You're a sweettalker =X

big day

Tomorrow is the big day. Probably the day where I stress out the most. I remember last year, going through half of the day and already being dead tired. Hard work, there will be moments where we might be screwed but find a way to solve it, the relief when everything gets done. The hardwork is going to pay off, and by the end of tomorrow night, I'm going to be smile, because the month of hard work will have come together, paid off, and hopefully end with a big bang. Then I'll be stressfree! Well, kinda. Got elections to deal with.

I'm so excited right now, you guys don't even know. Yet, I'm also very nervous.


Well, if that's what you want, alright..

no sé

I'm currently sitting in the back corner of my Spanish class, blogging from my phone. Blank stare, blank emotion, blank mind.

I don't know how to feel.

I know I feel sad, but I feel numb to it. I'm used to it. It's tough having to just walk on by and sigh. Why do I feel this way? Is something missing?

I haven't been down like this in a while. This really hasn't been my week =( (and I don't blame Trojan Olympics for feeling this way either.)

whaaaa.

Tired - 25%
Stressed - 40%
Sad - 25%
Excited - 10%

Yep, I think that's how I feel right now.

Crunch time, seriously. and other crap. =|

you do that!

Hahaha woooooow. I guess? It kinda makes me pretty mad hearing all of that, but whatever, a wise friend of mine once told me, "Let the haters hate." Karma can bite you in the butt too, cause we don't do anything in the first place. You guys did it last year, keep doing it, and we'll see what happens this year :D Geez. Just worry about yourselves!

4 days until Trojan Olympics, ahh! Tomorrow, waking up like at 4ish and going to school at 6am and not going home until maybe 10pm because of outside decorations/practice. Oh, a long day it is going to be.



Yay for regrets. =S

YAY

Trojan Olympics week is here. The week we all have been anticipated and talked about all year. This past month has been stressful, but this is definitely the week where I just might go crazy and have the smallest things irritate me so watch out.

Here comes the class tension, but I'm not even planning on being a b*tch to the other classes anyways. :) We don't swing that way, or at least I don't!

bizzaay

Today is going to come a long, busy day for me.

-???? (haha!)
-KFC Training (if I can find a ride.)
-U-Nite (if my mom says yes)

I had nothing to do last night so I ended up texting people while laying down like at 10pmish and I fell asleep for the rest of the night. Good thing I got some energy for today.


A reason to smile!

TROJAN OLYMPICS IS IN 6 DAYSSS NOW! Excitement.

Spring Dance pictures came in yesterday. I really like them! It's cute! Way better than our awkward Homecoming one haha, Matt thinks he looks ugly in it but I think he looks just swell (=




Oh, and yay for an all officers/advisors picture! :D

love like this

Rugball was actually hecka fun today, probably because now I know more people. I be a captain and my team = Kristina, Andrew Shin, Tyler Louie, Juan, and a bunch of random kids. It's hecka funny, we had to play all the "big, scary" people. I think we won though, AND I FELL. Ran towards the goal line, some guy hecka chasing after me, he fell, and trips me on his way down, and I hecka slid. I had a straight streak of wetness from the turf on my sweats, thank goodness I wasn't wearing shorts or I would of burned my leg. o_0

I have so many emotions bubbled inside of me, it's quite insane. I feel insanely tired, stressed, and sometimes, a bit confused. But while feeling those negative emotions, I also feel so joyful, blessed, and ecstatic for some reason. I really don't know why, so much going on at the same time. I guess the blessings in my life are still keeping me sane =)

"Why do people smile when no one’s smiling?
It's 'cause they're thinking of someone they’re loving."

Sitting & wondering.

fin

CAHSEE is ovahhhh! The math part was sooo easy, you can truly say it was an insult to our intelligence but I think if it was harder not that many people would pass it anyways. I like being able to skip classes and just hanging out (= Oh, and sitting in front of Kristina, sticking my fingers under the barrier, and having her color my fingers with a pencil -_- Back to 0 period as well.

They gave out referrals in front of our whole class of 600+ people to people who didn't go to class after 6 minutes of getting their pass. It was funny because everyone was applauding and cheering, wtg Kevin lmao. Crazyyy, in 2 years, we'll be cheering cause we're gonna be graduating though! So far though -_-

9 more days until Trojan Olympics. Oh shizzz, already?!

Getting really stressed out just with the thoughts of having to get so much done in so little time, but it's always worth the fun when everything is done and you look back on the hardwork. But, with all the blessings I have in life, I always find a way to smile, laugh, and just have fun. Praise God :D

Hi Mariel ;D I wonder if you'll ever read this. Just wanted to tell you you've truly put smiles on my face and laughter.. into my mouth? Uhh, I don't know, hahaha! Having 4 classes in a row with you is awesomee.

I think for the first time this year... I'm going to have a Friday night where I'm going to stay home. SAVE ME?!

*check the pb


Haha, out of all the little fishies you can pick, I doubt it'll ever be meee.

choices

My blogs need to be cut down to be shorter!

Day 1 of CAHSEE today, had to wait in the longgg line today, dang didn't know there were THAT many sophomores o_0 and fate placed me and Kristina to be sitting in front of each other, ahah we left after finishing part 1 at the same time as planned. I wrote on my booklet upside down asking if she was done and shoved it past the barrier so she can write back. =P

Part 2 of the English part? I almost fell asleep from reading all those stories -_-

The rest of my day, what can I say? I love it when things get really productive and fun at the same time.

Randomactsofkindness♥

Oh, and I have a plannnnnn, yes I doooo, we'll see how it goes (=

&it's all because of you.

GGGG'DAY MATE!

Gahhh, I'm ubbberr smiling and happy right now. I had a real good day (= To start it off, no dressing out in 0 period! And we're not dressing out Tuesday & Wednesday due to CAHSEE, (=(= meaning I get to sleep in! YAAAAY. Then we got to use our notes on our math test, so it was so much easier! If I didn't get to use my notes, I truly would of failed, no kidding. Spanish, we watched some mad funny presentations I was seriously laughing ahaha. Thennn, Matt and Karl (who I never even got to see) came! :DD Public school > Private school, you can ask them haha. Brought Matt to my 3rd period, and class went by hecka fast. Test in World History was only downside, I'm not sure if I did well on that one. Umm, debate in Leadership! Me and Teresa won! yay! And English we didn't really do anything, we were supposed to read but I didn't have my book. Just talked to Mariel, Matt, and Ashley.

Really good day at school, not to mention barely any schoolwork/homework because of CAHSEE tomorrow! wooohooo!

But the best part was most definitely afterschool getting to just talk about life and everything with the officers, and we were HECKA laughing it was really fun. I love them so much, gah, it's been a while since we had fun and truly laughed like that, I love it! We got work done too, that's good. I can honestly say I can imagine myself working without them )= But whatever they're down for, I'm down! But gahh, I'm glad we got to catch up and everything. :DDDD



shoutout to Bryan Castanares for being a legit friend also =)

Oh you strange child, stop staying up to be hella nosey, sheesh. Go to sleep, I know you're reading this. -_- You can't figure out and assume shizz from someone's blog, hah.

EDIT: I HAVE A FAT ASS BRUISE ON MY KNEE FROM FALLING AT THE DANCE, WOW. Talk about a shadow of ugly overcasting on my knee -___-

Mid-March

So Crisann! What do you have coming up this week?

-Debate in Leadership tomorrow, ahhh!
-an Algebra II test I might actually fail this time
-no more Spring Dance business! (but I want those pictures to come in!)
-Trojan Olympics crackdown -- IT'S IN 2 WEEKS.
-CAHSEE! I really and highly doubt I'm going to fail
-PE Unit is changing to Rugball on M, W, F, and Weights on T, T (=
-No YFC on Friday = empty Friday night
-KFC Training for San Jose & U-Nite on Saturday

Jampacked week again, but it shouldn't be as bad. The only thing I'm concerned about is my Debate, grr. I'm not all that great with public speaking. But funny, most of the stuff up there will be all done with after Wednesday (=

Keep in touchhhh. I had a good weekend, and you?

Seaside Success

Well, today wasn't as stressful as I figured it would be. Got everything done in time with no rush, maybe the only problems were not having the duct tape but it worked out. Only downsides were having to be at the door for the first hour putting wristbands on -_- It's okay though, haha. After the clock struck 8:30pm, we ran in and SILLY ME. SO EMBARRASSING. I SLIPPED ON THE TARP AND I HECKA FELL. So many people saw and asked if I was okay, but I just laughed it off. SO EMBARRASSING THOUGH!

Hecka matched with Matt again! haha, I liked our pose for the picture (= Hopefully I don't look ugly in it -_- Then officer/advisor picture, yayz! :D Then dance dance dance, the DJ was really good, best one I've ever heard at a dance. To me, it was like a big sophomore dance party. It was fun! Everyone was trying to freak but the asian chaperone kept busting on everyone. I think she really hated Matt because at one point she chased him HAHA but then Rhodan freaked on her. It was reallllyy funn thoughh, I'm glad we were able to pull it back up and make it great.

Dancing in the middle of no where by yourself is pretty fun alsoo, ahaha! Thank you to everyone who helped make it happen! :D

I am quite sore now. Woooo.



thanks to Matt for being a great date, again. haha =)

omg

tomorrow = uuuuber stress. don't get on my bad side, kthanks (=


remember this? Good times.





When I look into your eyes I know that it's true,

smilez

In your lowest lows, find some reasons to smile.

(no specific to order)









1. You are a really amazing person. Your integrity, courage, strength, and wisdom truly does inspire me to be a better leader. We always find ways to laugh, and sometimes, it brings me back to 8th grade where we had a tighter friendship. Right now, I really want to become closer friends to you again :D
2. Thanks for always keeping me on check making sure I'm alright, and making me laugh.
3. Haha, quite frankly, I like it when you come to me really hyper and happy like today.
4. Thanks for the push pops, bringing me out, and all those other goodie times.
5. Dizzammmmm, #1 featured on YouTube?! Hecka happy for you guys.
6. Our shortest conversations can really make me happy, whether even if its just saying goodnight!
7. Always will be #1, I will live to love You until the day I die, because through all the times I turn my head, You've stayed. You are truly all this heart is living for.
8. I miss you! Like forreal. Sorry I've ben hecka busy lately, but once this is all done, we'll get back on track right?
9. You inspire me, really! You are a really great friend too, laughter guaranteed.

Just one of those feelings.

Today was another one of those days, just feeling the need to rejoice and smile. Smile and laughs everywhere. I don't know, but soon I just started feeling really overwhelmed and stress. Probably because the Spring Dance is on Friday, and we're behind on getting things done, crunch time. This is pretty much expected, but just sometimes, there's a point where it's just too much.

I really love helping people out, no doubt, whether it be emotionally or physically. But sometimes... it's really bad timing when everyone comes to me in stressful times. Some people don't even let me ask them what's wrong or ask if they can vent to me. Some people are just dumping their emotions onto me, and I'm already here trying to juggle all this work for Spring Dance, Trojan Olympics, and school. Some people are busy complaining about things to me when I've had enough of it, and responsibilities being spilled on me that really shouldn't have to deal with me. I feel like I haven't even had time to handle my own emotions. I'm really, trying not to sound selfish, but I haven't had a whole day to enjoy and relax for myself ever since March rolled in. Some people are even throwing b*tchfits at me for stuff that isn't even my fault. Please, I really need a break. I'm really tired.

It's already hard enough trying to handle the workload because an officer is sick, and another has super strict parents. I don't have a problem with that, I truly understand their situations, but it sometimes, it really gets difficult. I said in the past this will be worth it, but I guess with March being halfway down, I'm at my breaking point.

It's just one of those days when I just want to walk along the shores of the beach alone, with my feet feeling the calm waters, and my eyes being laid on that beautiful horizon with those whiffs of fresh air, just being able to get away from it all.

Although the workload is giving heavy and taking a toll on me, I know forsure God has my back.

Don't deny it

-Almost late to 0 period, had to run (-_- freshman status) and almost got hit by a car, lol.
-Wednesday schedule today
-Unexpected quiz in math
-Empty class meeting at lunch
-WASC people came; SCARY.
-I lied about seeing my counselor (if I said I never saw them, makes MHS look bad!! -_-)
-Ms. Harris held us in during 6th period, missed my speech
-I have to dress up AGAIN tomorrow, doing speech tomorrow
-Afterschool = very productive = Crisann is very happy (=
-I LOST MY 1984 BOOK. If somebody finds one, let me know. :(
-I have a lot of homework to do.
-Spring Dance is on Friday. =O yay for more tixxx being sold.
-I miss yew Patris. Thanks for that comment♥

Mashley's 16th

Hung out with the gang today for Marielashley's 16th birthday. It's been awhile since I've done so, but it was fun (= Spent most of my day with NgocNgoc, but I think I got a chance to hang out with everyone there. My food = -_-

Memorable moments?
C: Hey, aren't you cold?!
K: No... but on the inside I'm cold!
C: ...you're cold on the inside?!
C/M/M: lol-ing
K: "Oh, no!!! I mean... man. I'm a cold hearted b*tch."

Haha, had some good laughs. After, went back home to paint hecka stuff. Thanks for helping Michelle, Jennifuhh, and Kristina. Got a lot of done, finally =_= Woo!

I need to work on debate for Monday. =| Then another one on Tuesday.


(just some of the gang)

Beautiful Day

Decided to delete my other blog.

I stepped out my door today, with a huge jacket on as my mom told me to get the mail. I prepared to brave myself against some chilly winds, but instead, the winds were calm, the breeze was smooth, the sun was out, and the pavements didn't seem wet at all. I couldn't help but be so happy, for today God has blessed us with a beautiful day. The rain has passed (for now), but let's take advantage of this great weather (=

Piles

Today was uhh.. interesting. Let's not go into detail (= But, almost done with the week! The school still smells like crap.

RAWR, I have to do 2 speeches/debate next week.. I hope they're not on the same day ><

&I love how Trojan Olympics is giving me a chance for me to gain new friendships with people I never really talked to, or who I used to be ubahh close with. Laughter, smiles, I love this. I truly think our team is hecka bonding. Me gustaaa!

Now, I must do HECKAAA homework. I haven't had this much in a while, see yaa.

Shoutout to Bryan Castaneres and Erika Diaz! :D

Whoopsiez.

I was studying last night with my laptop and I kinda fell asleep but had planned on waking up. That didn't happen until I was waken up, haha -_- I like going to sleep on a happier note like that though, thank you. Just decided I'd wake up an hour earlier to study, and now here I am studying for ESPANOL!

Sighh, it kinda makes me sad watching this happen over and over again. I usually don't know what to say cause I'm caught in the middle. I'm praying for you 2.

I got time.

Wanted to blog, but my mind is filled with a lot, but doesn't have energy to put it into words. Or to make it simple, I'm just lazy haha (= Woke up so tired, exhausted, and sore from practice. Hair up is rare for me nowadays, and decided to just throw on whatever clothes, didn't really care. Really lazy and tired, one of those days. I was even about to wear sweats to school, yuuck. Today = school smelled like crap, poles were being repainted and compost being dumped onto the hecka plants at school. -_- Picked background for Spring Dance afterschool, it's gonna be niceee and different. I'm excited more.

We found a frog in a puddle walking back to school (not in the puddle above). I think puddles are gross. :)

Happy happy joy joy!

It's been raining so much this whole day! But, I really don't care -- we need it. I'd rather get soaked from the rain than be in this drought we're in right now. Praise the Lord.

Practically spent my whole day at school. For food break, walked with everyone's favorite white boy to Nob Hill & Little Caesars. Ate pizza at the table with partycityboy, bigbooty, and whiteboy. Good talks. Had to change, but bathrooms were changed! So I had to change out of my jeans and into shorts like right under that overhang. FUN. -_- hahaha. "If you turn around I'm going to shoot you in the face!" Had some good laughs. Practice was good, I'm excited. I was hecka like jumping and dancing around in joy. :D

Regardless of the rain (I don't think I've ever seen it rain this hard), my week has been REALLY good. These past 2 days, I've been in a really good mood. That kinda mood where you just feel jumpy, and just want to smile at everyone you see even though you don't know them. The happiness in your heart that when you hug people, you just want them to feel the joy you feel in your heart. Let's just say... I'm a really happy little girl right now. =)

But in the end, after smiling, I begin to think.. something feels missing. Just when you thought you're done with the puzzle, you realize you're missing a piece.


PS: Shoutout to Angelica & Trevor. Love you guys! You guys made my day.

Where are you now?

The hard work has begun, but I have yet to feel stressed. I actually feel pretty happy, because I'm getting a bunch of things accomplished a bit quicker than I planned. That's goood. Better than rushed & overwhelmed. We'll see how much longer it'll be on schedule, but for now, it's truly work now, play later. Hahhh, way later!

55 Spring Dance tickets sold on the first day. It's kind of a sense of relief.

Oh, and if I counted correctly, 66 more days of school. Seems like a lot, but I'm pretty darn sure it'll fly by. Summer, hurryup! Chicagoooo!! =D

Sometimes, you just gotta love Milpitas High, forreal. Today everyone was in such a good mood, thanks to the Camp Everytown-ers being back and bringing back such positive energy. I think it's really lame how people are bringing them down and doubting what they learned. But whatever, let them talk, I'm happy for you guys. Kinda regret turning it down, but whatever happens, and I have 2 more chances to go.

Oh, the beautiful moments in life..

March

Hello to the month of March.
Hello to a bunch of stress headed my way,
hello to the moments where I'll feel overwhelmed,
hello to the moments where I'll just be too busy,
hello to the moments where I might just wanna go off on some people,
hello to the moments where I'll want to pull my hair out,
hello to the moments where it'll just be worth it all
&I'll be smiling looking back.

Here comes the first week of March. My weekend has been VERY productive, thank God. Maybe it'll put me ahead of my schedule, hopefully! I'll need to get as much sleep as I can get.

I got time.