Sick.

I'm getting kindof sick, hopefully it doesn't get worse than this. Yesterday I was on the phone with Michelle and Kevin and all of a sudden my throat started to hurt, and I've been stuck with it ever since, and it's getting worse. It feels like I have a thousand needles clumped together stuck there. And when I sneeze, it hurts hella bad. Coughing sucks too. I'm pretty sure it was most likely Mariel who has gotten me sick. She's been sick, and basically my whole school day is spent with her. Michelle D was out sick today too =P

Today's the last I get to be free and be loud and obnoxious as I want to. Tomorrow morning I go to school, and when I get home, my uncle and aunt are going to be at my house from the Phillippines. They're gonna be living here for a while, I wonder how that'll go. They can barely speak english, and I can't speak tagalog. Dundundundun. Not to mention I'll be stuck cleaning and doing chores now, ugh.

Homecoming tickets go on sale tomorrow, I just realized this morning I need to save up some money for pictures! Akshdjaskhdka. Matt needs to gimme his guest pass so I can buy the cheap tickets before they go up next week. If anyone still needs a date, don't ask me, I suck at hooking it up now. hahaha

It's getting pretty cold. Yesterday, I went to get bangs trimmed and finally get my thick ass hair thinned out. Satisfied, but bangs are kinda too short. At least they'll have time to grow out before HC tho, and hair is thin and I like it.

Phonecalls before I sleep are nice. =) Oh, and hilarious.
"Isn't Einstein and Frankenstein the same person!?"

First day of October tomorrow. October is going to be superduper busy, just having to deal with the Rally and Carnival and Game and stuff. It'll be fun though, hopefully.

Weekend

My weekend was ok. Saturday woke up early to do laundry and get for sister/cousin's birthday party up in Madera (near Fresno). Lots of food, bouncehouse, it was hot. It was alright. There was some sad moments for me cause yeah. Some people know why. Left like at 12am, got home at 2am.

Today woke up early to go to 10:45am mass. Ended up sitting by myself in the corner. After, everyone ended up having to go home cause they couldn't go anymore. Michelle D. = mother, Raymond = homework, Twins = can't go anymore. I ended up alone hella confused on what to do, and thank goodness Melanie was there. We decided to just hit up Great Mall, walked there. Went around twice to help her fnid a dress, just bought a cardigan from H&M. Then we took bus to Greg's house, and it stopped farther than his house so we had to go over the overpass. -_- Got there, waited for his cousin to come, then went to VF. More bailing outs, Matt = church! So it ended up just being me and Melanie and Greg. Got to bond with them, then Kristina came. We went around, tried to help her look for a dress, she bought makeup that made her face look super clear.

Now I'm sitting here trying to think of what to say because I just had a storm of thoughts going through my head, and I guess the storm cleared. Boo, it always happens to me.

Now I just realized I have some homework and a quiz to study for, plus a Powerpoint I had a week to do. Crap.

I guess I'm almost set for Homecoming. Dunno how I'm gonna do my hair, and shoes? And Matt neeeds to get his stuff!

[x] Dress
[x] Earrings
[ ] Shoes
[ ] Hair

=)

You are the sweetest thing.

Thanks a bunch.

Today was nice. Q-Cup fundraiser for our class, and Mariel & I got to leave 6th period 15 minutes early to beat everyone else there so we can get peoples' receipts. We got stopped to show our passes like twice though. Talked about Mariel's Homecoming date and stuff on our way there. When we got there, she took the receipts from the 8th graders from Russell and I started to calculate stuff. Hella people came, and it was crowded. At one point, they burned something and the place smelled like smoke and everything. Things settled down, and we just chilled. Later on, it narrowed down to me, Mariel, Kevin Miranda, and Kevin Catap. We talked about a lot of things, and had some good laughs too. Me and Kevin Miranda hella talked about summer memories too, we still miss it! We were there from 2-8pm, the whole time. Finished my homework there. We made a good amount of money tooo, makes me excited, especially since what happened to Frozo's haha =) My mom was supposed to pick me up at 8:15pm but it was 8:25pm soo I called her. Turns out she was sleeping so I asked for a ride from Mariel's brother Marvin. First, we went to Frozo's then was just chillin on the street there for awhile then we went home. I'm pretty tired now, the end!

I ramble about my school day too much. I have so much to say, but I always forget. I feel like doing a stream of consiousness right now. Here I go...

START: 9:42PM
I wonder if I should sleep early tonight, I haven't taken a nap this whole week and my eyes are always so small in the morning when I wake up. Fck, breaking out is so annoying on my face, it always happens at bad times. I want some ice cream... yummmmmmm. Homecoming, I'm excited! I wonder if everyone's gonna manage to find a date. Someone just IMed me on AIM but I don't wanna check because it's going to ruin this stream of consiousness. Ummmmmm, I fcking hate cigarettes. Those are the only things I hate in this world, the way she coughs and seeing her smoke like 5 in 30 minutes kills my heart, it really does. No matter how much I cry about it, or tell her how I feel about it, she just doesn't care. Anyways, yeah. On TV some guy is hanging upside down, I don't know what he's doing. I don't even know what I'm watching. I can wish and wish, but it's never gonna happen. I don't even know why this should be making me happy, I should just let it go 'cause yeah. I'm so uglyy. I have changed so much, I remember when I was small I'd be SO shy I didn't even wanna shake peoples hand fo the Peace be with you part at mass. Today I found out Kevin Miranda was most likely in my first communion class... HOW WEIRD! I didn't even know anyone in that class because it was at Our Lady of Peace. I wonder where my sisters are. I'm kindof nervous to lead opening worship on Friday, and I still need to pick songs. I wanna do The Time Has Come but Jerms said Son isn't gonna be there for the drums. Hmmm, but opening worship shouldn't be that bad. Yeahyeahyeah. Ummmmm, Kevin Catap, I COULD OF socked you in the face for what you did. You hella got me pissed for a second just because of what already happened and crap. Geeeeez. Hahaha, but it's okay, I'm not mad =P LALALA I dislike weight training... so boring. I really wanna play rugball, I love it, but then I'm gonna get all sweaty and crap and my hair and yeah. Oh well, I love rugball! I'm excited for our Senior Prom, even though it's 3 years away. The orange flashing of someone IMing me is really tempting me to look, but I shouldn't. I wanna thin my hair out. I wonder if I should cut that ugly jewel thing off my possible Homecoming dress, cause it looks cheap. But it might look funny without it. IDK! The flashing is killing me. I want to look now. Goodbye!
END: 9:49pm

Crapload of Chemistry.

is what we have ;] SIIIIIIKE. Is what I have for homework, actually. Decided to take a break and blog.

My chemistry teacher decided to assign a crapload of homework, put it on a list, and make it all due on the day of our quiz/test. However, I didn't know he assigned so much, now I am forced to finish it today cause there's a test tomorrow. I don't really get this crap, but I'm trying. I also have Algebra II homework to do still, and yeah. I'm really tired.

0 period was pointless today, Kristina forgot her clothes so I was left alone again. However, Mr. Zamudio said we were gonna leave at 7:27 since he had a meeting, which was good. I didn't even exercise at all, I just walked around and peeked out the door at Kristina hahaha. Yeah, it was really short. After, dressed out then went to tables. Discovered things out from people, made me pretty aggreviated, but now that I actually know the whole situation and how it had good reasoning, I'm fine with it. I almost lost trust with a friend, but s'all good in the hood now =) 1st period, I can't take my teacher's teaching skills, aklsdakjdklaj. Spanish, I just remembered I have spanish homework to do still ugh. But I have a A+ in that class hahaha. All I did was write a note to Rowena in this class. 3rd period chem, gossip + practice quiz. World history, I wrote back to Michelle Nguyen and then worked on primary source stuff. I always go on AIM/text during this period heheh. So feel free to text me from like 11:06 - 12:06pm =P on go on AIM. Umm, leadership, we finished up the presentation. Me, Kevin, and Michelle talked about Homecoming. exciteeed! 6th period, did presentation. I think me and Mariel did alright.

afterschool, took pictures with the friends and stuff. then my sister picked me up and we went to Valley Fair so I could find a hc dress but no success. We tried at Great Mall too, fck, I don't know where I'm gonna find a dresssssss =/

Yeah yeah I'm hella sleepy right now. I think I'll go back to homework. boooooo, I cant wait until I get to sleep.

PS: I need to get back with posting up pictures + stories.

Happy, happy, happy.

As expected, I did not get to sleep in today. I woke up like at 10am to get ready for church, and yeahhh. Had to leave a bit earlier since I had to be Projectionist and there was no parking due to festival. Saw Francis and Nicole A. I didn't really see anyone at church today, and the priest gave a funny talk today about spouses and stuff. Hahaha. Dude, everytime they sing "Jesus lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us." I get hella confused with the lyrics on the screen so if you go to 12:30, you probably saw that I kept switching it. 'cause, I always switch it to the next one but Ed and them sing some other line. =P Be Not Afraid! I love that song, SJB Confirmation c/o 2008, love and miss em. I wonder how it's gonna work with me helping out this year, cause I wanna be with YFC too now you know? But idk. Anyways, after church, walked out towards car. Saw Angelica C. (Francis' sister), Andrew, and Matt (who I did not expect to see at all).

Then I went to Great Mall with my sister and mother, cause Gian needed to find a dress for Rozelle's debut and I was like, might attempt to find a dress for Homecoming even though I knew I wasn't going to find one, which was true. I got new sunglasses though! They're like multicolored, but I like them. Then we went to Safeway so my sister could buy food for her breakfast or whatever, then ate pho. Went home, was gonna go to carnival to go chill with Ray or something but I got to sleepy and decided to take a nap instead. Now, here I am online. I tried to look for Homecoming dresses online but no success =| I decided I wanted to wear like one of these colors:


yeah, preference in that order. And preferably darker shades, maroon, dark purple, teal, dark navy blue. Yeahhhh! =)

"My head is spinning with happiness and can't help but smile and sing to myself with sweet thoughts of what I want, bringing me to cloud nine, but then after the thought that it's impossible brings me back down to earth.."

You make all things new.

=( I don't get to sleep in this weekend... I had to wake up early today since I went to SF with Mariel. And tomorrow I have to wake up early for church. I'm really tired, I'm still tired from Friday, well just the whole week in general. I need to recuperate some sleep or w/e, I only took a nap like once this week.

After SF, my mom picked me up and I was tired. I was supposed to go Festival again, but my mom and sister were sleeping. Sister couldn't pick me up, but then yeah whatever I guess it gave me time to do the hella homework I have. I still need to do the Vocab thing for english that I'm about to do, and tomorrow I'll finish my math homework which I might have to BS because I don't get it, then start on cheat sheet for chem.

I'm really trying in my classes, but it's hard. My new math teacher stinks, she seriously expects us to know everything and grades our homework hella strictly, geeez. Chemistry teacher expects us to know everything too, so if we ask for help, he tells us to use our brain. His explanations get confusing, and I don't really understand what we're doing right now. World History, I thought I aced that test because it was hella easy, but I got a B-. The eff. But whatever, as long as I keep doing all my classwork/homework I think I'm good.

I took a nap starting at 6 but I was supposed to wake up at 7 to continue homework, but I was too tired and I accidently extended until like 8:30. I worked on outline and section assessment for world history, now that's done. Yeuup, I guess today was one of my lazy/productive days.

Lots on my mind... I guess I have a calling to do something on Friday. I remember at Conference they told us if someone asks us to do something, don't question it and just do it. Which is why I'm doing it. But I'm pretty nervous. I swear, like right before I do something, I have the words just flowing through my blood and I'm prepared, butt when I get down to it, I get hella nervous and I just lose it all and screw up. What I'll be doing isn't even big, and I've done it before... but just not alone. Let's see how this'll go.

I got stuff to say people too. One can pertain to more than one person.

1. I'm really glad I'm getting close to you again, laughing with you always makes my day =) Thanks for helping me out toooo.
2. I never expected we'd bounce back after how our friendship went totally went down the drain yesterday. This makes me happy.
3. You wear too much make up, stop. lol
4. I've never known anyone else I wouldn't mind telling the world about. But it takes two. =)
5. I REALLY don't know if you're "interested" or what not, but I'm not, and 2 words: Step off. (please.)
6. You utterly disgust me.. what has happened to you?
7. I'm glad where we are with our friendship. It was just like 3 years ago I met you, and I was hella intimidated by you. I also hella jealous, and I don't know. But everything's all good now, really good. =)
8. You two are cute together... muahahaha >=D
9. Homecoming! =)

Fridays are always the best.

Today was Friday, yay finally! Today at school was bleh though! 1st period, my teacher gave me a 3/5 on my homework because she thought I copied answers straight out of the book. WRONG, I did not. Rawr! Whatever, I think I might do bad in that class =/ Hecka strict grading teacher. We had a sub in spanish, finished Hercules. "Que haces los fine de semana?" said the sub, and someone was like "Me corto." which meant he's gonna cut himself. Chemistry = boring, world history = also boring. Leadership, we had to practice public speaking, so we had to draw like words out of a box and keep talking about it for 45 seconds straight. The topic I got was pancakes. I talked about how people eat it for breakfast at Denny's and stuff, then I ran out of things to say and hella bsed it at the end. I was hella nervous though. 6th period, so Ms. Ngo wasn't there and we had no teacher for 20 minutes. Everyone was like going crazy and turning off the lights cause hella troublemakers in that class. People were gonna use her stamp to make passes and leave, and me and Mariel didn't know what to do so we were gonna go to Cummins' room. On our way out, student + security game and Mr. Atwell comes in as he's supposed to. He forgot he was subbing for us -_- Didn't really do anything since I finished poster + left vocab at home. It was okay.

Afterschoool, went to watch tennis game vs. Piedmont. Finally met Christine Doan from Piedmont, and watched my friend be a pro at smacking them tennis balls. After, left with Michelle N. and Angelica to Tapioca Express, then went to Michelle's house to chill. We got to talk like old times, and she played From the Inside Out on the piano. Muy bonito! Sooon, Kristina and MichelleD came and we chilled, then went to Sendai. Ordered Phoenix. Mariel, Matt, and Russell came. We ate, handled bill, then walked to St. Johns for the Autumn Festival!

Sooo, MichellleD and I had a plan for me to ask Matt to Homecoming at the festival. My plan WAS to have someone distract him while I got on the ferris wheel, and when I'd get to the top, I'd hold up a poster I made and yell his name so he'd look. However, NO ferris wheel this year and I had no back up plan or whatsoever. I kindof panicked, but then people suggested I ask from the balcony kinda thing at the top of the haunted house. I had to go in the haunted house to get to the top, and I was kinda scared hahaha. Me and Michelle went in, and we tagged with freshmen, then we got up. I hid, then it took foreverdays for Matt to come. I was pretty scared because HELLA people were out there watching, then he came and I stopped hiding and busted out my poster. People told him to go there cause someone wanted to fight him or whatever, HAHA. Someone told me he was like, I have to fight Crisann!? and yeah, hahaha. He said yes! Woohoo! It took hella long for me and Michelle to get back out to him and everyone else though, cause we had to go through another part to get out and hella of us were in there. We were turning a corner and we were all scared something was gonna pop out, so we'd be like "You first!" to all the people. No one took the chance, so we spent a good time arguing lmao. Soon, we were out, and Matt said yes and gave me a big hug! yayyyyyy then yeah. Pictures! They're all ugly because I look fcking tired, man. Hahaha. Funny cause Troy was like, "you went from i hate mattland to homecoming with mattland". hahaha

After, went on rides. DiscoTekno or wahtever, I was about to not get on while everyone else was on cause no more open seats. But soon, they somehow got a seat for me but I had to sit alone. Then we went on it again, and I sat with Matt. I kept getting slammed in my seat it kinda hurt, hahaha. Me and Michelle went on the spinnyride thing, and I kept slamming into her but idk it was hella funny. Hi-Roller ftw though, hella funnn and there was so much padding so it didn't hurt like crap when we went upside down or anything! There was also a funhouse and it was kinda whack. Oh yeah, the Haunted House was dumb cause it just had paintings on the wall and nothing popped out or whatsoeverrr.

So yeah, that was a just bit of a great day, but now I have a Homecoming date! There's a video on YouTube! : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYMbp90Z33Y

Tired.

WOWOWOW, I was blogging then the browser froze. Opened it back up, and it'd usually be saved. This time, no.

This was mosdefinitely my most tiring day of the school year so far. I didn't wake up tired, but I was tired. I slept in 1st period because my teacher was talking about a test I didn't take because I wasn't in her class, and I had nothing else to do. Slept/listened to Brooke Fraser in World History because they were watching a movie. Ms. Bielski is so oblivious. I'm always texting, or doing something I'm not supposed to be doing in her class and she never notices or says anything. Yay for sitting in the back! =)

What's really bugging is me is I lost my house keys. All I can remember is I opened the door, took my shoes off, and went to the computer downstairs in which I walked straight to do my homework from the computer. Then I realized my keys were missing and I couldn't find it. I'm really sure it's lying somewhere around this house, but my last assumption is I left it in the keyhole and some freak outside took it =( I'm scared! I hope I find it or I'm in uber trouble.

matt (8:30:30 PM): ill pray to God

matt (8:30:35 PM): he'll like make it appear

crisann (8:30:46 PM): hahah thanks
crisann (8:30:48 PM): and when i find it.

crisann (8:30:49 PM): i'll be like

crisann (8:30:53 PM): thanks God! and matt.

I'm sleepy right now. I think I'm gonna sleep soon? Yay, festival on Friday! and other plans, ahah.

Deren (9:32:27 PM): forgot this convo

Deren (9:32:36 PM): erase it from your mind

crisann (9:32:39 PM): ok

crisann (9:32:41 PM): hahaha

Deren (9:32:47 PM): and replace it with me running in a bush

Brooke the Fraser & Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles

Yesterday was great. I got ready around 12pmish and then Jennifer picked me up with Celeste and Edison and then we went to church to meet up with my sister. We waited for a while, then Gian took us on our way to eat at Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles. We got lost for quite a long while, but we eventually got there! When I got in there, it felt like I was in a movie! Chicken and waffles.. sounds strange right? Breakfast + dinner! But it was actually really good, I got 2 pieces of chicken + 2 pieces of waffles. Mhmmmmmm, I loved the waffles too. Chicken pieces I got were thighs and they were pretty big. I was surprised I didn't get full in the middle of the meal because it was so much, and I actually finished it all. Yes, I do feel accomplished. However, I accidently walked into a worker in the bathroom because the lock on the door didn't work. oooops.

After that, we were Brooke Fraser bound! It didn't take that long though, like 30 minutes. We kinda got lost again but then we got there, then parked. We waited in line with Kat and Patris, and then I met Wilson and Diane from CFC-Y Northcoast (Vallejo). Soon they let us in! We got a table/seats right in front of the stage, like I was really surprised we got seats there. Brooke Fraser was literally right in front of us, so close! Matt Hires was her opening act, he was pretty good. But I was way too excited to see Brooke! Then she came out! She sang songs I liked, but she didn't sing Arithmetic (the song on my MySpace)! =( It's okay though, I still got to see her right in front of my face!! She's so much taller than I expected too, the show went by pretty fast. She also has a really great, chill, and funny personality! I want a friend like her... haha We waited for a bit after the show, and she didn't come out =/ It's okay. Then we went home and got Q-Cup on the way home from dropping everyone. I got home like at 12am ish. I didn't sleep until 1am though. Another experience to put on the list for 2008. =)
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So, I only got like 4 hours of sleep last night. Having 2 alarms go off at once works though, lmao. Weight training is getting so boring... like yeah I'm trying to work out my muscles and everything but I do the same stuff every other day and nothing to look forward to. And I have 3 more weeks of it -___- I want rugball! Today in Spanish I almost got a detention for not doing my homework because I didn't know we had to do page 5, but thanks to the person sitting next to me for letting me copy and saving my butt! Chemistry was boring, juust worked on confusing ass lab. I mean, really complicated. World History is boring, but LOL Danilo dude. He was singing "A Milli" and crumping and would be like "AYE NIGGA!" to these black girls in our class. I told him to challenge them to a crumping battle lmao it was pretty funny. I was texting like all period though, whatever she talks about during class isn't really even on our tests, it's straight out of the book. At lunch, we were supposed to meet with Ms. Ngo but she wasn't there so we just hung out and took peeeektures again like everyday. Leadership, made posters for spirit week but I fcking messed up so it's hella ugly, I hope we don't use it. Hahahaha. In English, the Vocab Quiz I hella panicked I would fail was easy, and me and Mariel started on our poster.

Today, Homecoming surfaced up and who everyone was planning to go with. I think I have a mindset on mine, me and my friend have been planning this for quite a while now. All we need to do is ask/get asked. =)

So apparently, we're having a YFC Prom for sure in November. I was talking about it with Rio, and I was choking laughing about this.

rio (10:15:00 PM): are you going to go

crisann (10:15:14 PM): idk it sounds fun but im scared someone that i dont wanna go with will ask me

rio (10:16:00 PM): yeah that too

rio (10:16:09 PM): and its awkward freak dancing with a brother LMAO

rio (10:16:10 PM): feel me

downhill

I've been staring at the sky tonight
Marvelling and passing time
Wondering what to do with daylight
Until I can make you mine
You are the one I want, you are the one I want

Dreaming with a broken heart.

"Three Amigas"
I don't know what they think, but I think we all look ridiculously weird/funny/ugly (me) in this picture. But, it shows how our friendship used to be. For most of you, it's been hella long since you've heard the term "Three Amigas". Crisann, Jennifer, &Michelle Nguyen. We go back to 8th grade, that was our greatest years. We'd hang out with each other every day at school, especially on Fridays. Sen Dai sushi before YFC, then chillin at YFC. Whenever all I was them, all I could do was laugh. I probably burned a million+ calories from all the times I've laughed with them. We were the best of friends, we seemed unbreakable. We matched up with the Three Amigos in several ways. We had 2 asians, and 1 filipino (me -_-), while the Three Amigos had 2 filipinos, and 1 asian. There were other ways, but that was only in pictures. Hahaha. Just when I found the friends I thought I'd have for life, high school cames and new friends came. Things really changed for us, and we drifted like fck. We didn't even call each other Three Amigas anymore. I barely talked to Jennifer, and I saw Michelle ocassionally but it didn't compare to before. Too many cliques. However, Sophomore year has come along and I'm regaining a great friendship with both of them and it makes me really happy. Who knows... the Three Amigas may be on a comeback.

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Yesterday was cool. I finally made it on time to 0 period, and so did Kristina! Hahaha. I still wish I had my old first period, but at least I know people in that class now. We're baking cookies in Chemistry next week! Woohooo! In World History, our corner (me, Ashley N., Danilo, Mariel) keeps talking and being l0ud, so Ms. Bielski said she's considering moving seats around on Monday -__- Noooo! At lunch and break and stuff, we took pictures are our temporary tables because some people were just really nice and just took all the tables. So immature, at least if we take some of our tables back we leave you guys 1. And I'm serious, it doesn't make sense how you guys have a group half of our size and need more tables than us. SHARING IS CARING! Pictures again, I love it. It brings us back together. I love my camera. It's small, but is a big box of fun. Eww, I can't believe I just said that. Hahaha, and yeah. It was really empty around school though because people were at Archie's funeral/Senior Picnic. We didn't do much in Leadership either since majority of the class was gone. Library in 6th period! The most retarded thing happened to me, I was reading about Judaism for our project and next thing I know, my teacher says "Wake up Crisann!" I didn't even know I fell asleep. Woowwwww.

Afterschool, we took pictures again. When I got to the table, they were like, "Let us take a picture of you and your middle finger! Everyone's gonna do it too and everyone's gonna default it!" Haha, peer pressure. Then, Me, Jen, Mikha, and Rio headed to Q-Cup to chill. I ate funnel cake, and they shared their chicken and curly fries. Full. Then me and Jen went to Deren's house to chill for a bit and so she can see his longboard. Went back to her house to chill, and we had a good talk. I love her. It really helped =) Mikha picked us up, then we got to YFC. Freakin Ray was a liar, saying they were gonna get there at 9pm but they lieeeeeee. Chilled, then meeting started.

Eddiben told us how we need to open up our eyes to what we have in front of us, cause we have SOOO much. Honestly, it's just how our minds are set, and our minds need to be set to that we have so much. Because we really do. I know so many people who will throw a fit because their parents won't let them go out, but you know what, they're already fortunate to have parents who let them out sometimes, or even a car to get around, or even parents to ask. Some people don't have any of that, and yeah. Most times when we are sad, we look at what we DON'T have instead when we should be happy for looking at what we DO have. This relates to me, a lot. I need to change my mindset.

Worship was great, actually, it's really great. We finally sang Your Name High! Dude, whoever has that song mp3, hook it up. I can't find it anywhere. And we sang You'll Come too. My favorite is always Saviour King, I think that's the ultimate worship song.

After YFC, I was really wanting to go home. 0 period all week really does kill my energy, waking up an hour earlier and being at school an hour later... and it does tire you out for the rest of the school day. When I got home, I went to sleep and knocked out.

Thank you Jennifer for kinda cheering me up about my cousin. Some of you know, some of you don't know, whatever. Instead of being sad that she's gonna pass soon, I should be happy. She's gonna be going to heaven, where her life will be mosdefinitely better because she's gonna be with God and feel his love even more. That's what's going to happen to all of us eventually, we just go at different times. This really changed my mind about the whole situation. =)
Hope which was lost.... is now renewed.

Today, I woke up at 12, ate, uploaded pictures, and went back to sleep. I woke up at 4pm and got ready cause my mom wanted to go to Target. We went to Target, then we ate at Happi House. My mom and I always go there to eat, and I always have a great conversation with her there. We always eat the same thing, and sit in the same spot. Hahaha, I like it. The same lady is there too.. sometimes I wonder about her story. Like why she chooses to work everyday at Happi House, it seems so boring to work there. There must be a really great reason why, and she's always in a great mood too. She keeps everything in there perfect, all the sauce bottles always filled up. It really does make me wonder, what drives her to do what she does?

BROOKE FRASER TOMORROW!! I hella hope I can snag a picture with her + autograph. =) I'm gonna get home hella late though... so I'm gonna be beat on Monday. Oh wells, should be worth it.

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart... the giving up is the hardest part."

The clouds are coming.

"One Last Night"

This picture was from Sunday night of Conference. Majority of people went home, but majority of NorCal and SoCal decided to stay just one more night and leave the next day to save money on our airfares. What a night this was! At first, it was just Southcoast in the dorms. We played tag... on THREE floors. It was hella tiring running from floor to floor, and it'd be hella scary if we'd hide in the elevator and seeing the person that's IT at the door when it opened. Not only was that fun, but playing the game where someone threw a bean bag on some random floor and you had to race someone on the other team to get it. The best part was probably when we thanked our parent coordinators, and even brought them to tears + worship in a circle! They really deserved our thanks, they're always here for our guidance and support and they choose to do what they do. Oh, but the mosdef highlight was CRY WOLF. That was some good shit, especially when Mikko owned us all because he was the killer and no ONE got it except Robbie. And when Robbie was explaining how Mikko was the killer, we all thought he was calling the game over and everything. Hahaha, but I guess not. And it sucked how I got killed on the first round when I was the killer because Robbie gave the clue "GMC". After it all, I fell asleep watching Cinderella Story on my iPhone with Michelle Barros, who I hella miss! Not only was this a day for us to have fun, but to grow spiritually as a family not as Southcoast, NorCal, or SoCal... but as CFC-Y California.

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Each day, my heart seems to be getting heavier and heavier, and these eyes are getting weary from this sadness.

The clouds are overtaking the sun for me. I just pray for the strength to see the sun through the clouds.

Today I woke up to my sister busting into my room saying, "Aren't you supposed to be at school?" I look at the clock. 6:59am. WTF?! My alarm on my phone didn't go OFF again. I usually leave my houst at 6:45am since 0 period starts at 7:10am, and I need to dress out for PE. This was like the 3rd time this week I woke up way later than I was supposed to, but the other 2 days, I actually had time to get ready. I hella jumped up to get ready, and barely straightened my hair so it was fcking ugly. I got to school at 7:20am, got a tardy pass. I wasn't the only person tardy though, there was like 3 other people haha. Mr. Zamudio got mad at me the worse though -_- Probably because my reason was all my fault when everyone else was late because of their parents/bus. He said he was the last person he expected to be tardy. Argh, it's only been 3 weeks and I already have a tardy. I hope I can make it for the rest of the year..

Also, on my way to school, I realized I was rushing so much that I forgot my textbook at home, which had my outline inside. My World History teacher doesn't allow late work either, and that outline was worth 20 points. So, I asked my mom to drop it off during break. 2nd period was a killer tho, we were watching Hercules in spanish because we had a sub and I was hella sleepy. My eyes were burning from trying to keep them awake. I was sitting like in front of the sub too, lmao. At break, I got my book, and then yeah. 4th period was hella funny though! It's sad how we always make fun of Ms. Bielski though. Her phone went off during class and then she had some ugly weird ringtone. She was like, "Well, this is embarrassing." and Danilo was like, "Is that ringtone from the 1800's?!" LMAO, cause of that AD/BC thing that happened before where he said she only knew that because she went to school in the 1800's. Then she was like trying to say shifted, and you know how people studder when they messed up? So she was like... "The church sh-sh-shi-shalalalala". LOL, sh said "shalalala". Sorry if it doesn't sound funny, but just imagine an old lady saying SHALALALA. It was hilarious. And I was bored so I drew Ashley a picture of "shalalala" and me, her, Mariel, and Danilo were hella laughing. We all sit in the corner in the back so yeah, and lmao, Ashley took a pushpin from the posters to stick it on the wall, but then the poster fell over. It was funnnyyyy.

6th period, we're continuing to study Cinderella stories. We have a project, and Mariel's my partner. Every partner has to pick a Cinderella story from different religion our teacher had, and we were gonna take Phillippines for our teacher said not to take the book yet. Then when she told us too, SOMEONE else took the book! Darn it! Then we were gonna pick the Korean book, but some girl asked for it so I was like fiiine. In the end, we picked the Jewish one called "The Way Meat Loves Salt". Mariel had to leave, so I read it by myself. It's really weird... haha. The end of my whack school day.

It makes me sad how people ask about "it". Most people actually thought it would of happened or was perfect for yeah. I did too. I really hoped and wished it would. I actually thought it could happen... seemed so perfect. In the end, I guess the person next to me got lucky. It's never ever me, but always the things standing next to me. Like for example, in a grocery store... if I was a peanut butter jar, people would choose the other brands next to me, and never me. =( Funny how this happens every year, at the same time.

Oh, rest in peace Archie Zulueta. Tomorrow the school's gonna be empty because majority of people will be at the funeral. It's just sad how people can be gone in a flash, and you can regret not being able to tell them you love them. I'm telling you guys, we gotta love each other like we'll never see each other again. Life is so unpredictable. The way his death is affecting my cousins and others around me, is affecting me also. It's also striking some thoughts in my mind... =/

Each picture

lies a story right? That's my new Blog headline. So I decided to live it up. Everytime I blog, I'll have a picture. And I'll explain a story behind it.

"Leaders of the Pack"

These 3 people, I have grown a great bond with. Not only are we the Sophomore Class Officers, leaders, role models, but we are the leaders of the pack. People expect the best out of us, for they know we want the best for our class and will let nothing get in our way of letting that happen. But, what drives us to do what we do? What drives us to do leadership? Is it for the compliments we receive from our class? Or just the title? Perhaps it is simply because we have nothing else better to do? Well for me, what drives me to be a leader is just knowing I can be and make the change I want to see in my class. I want my class to go and rise above any other class to have existed at Milpitas High, but I can't just sit around and wish for that to happen. I have decided, for these past 2 years, to step it up and be the change I want to see. I am commited to my class 100%, and will work on my butt off just to know I made a difference in my class. Hopefully, I will be able to do this until the day we leave Milpitas High. There's more to the title of a Class Officer, Vice President, and a leader. There's a reason why we do what we do, and why we ran to be what we are today. You may see us as "leaders", but really, we are great friends seeking to make a change in our class. Believe it.


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So, that's my first story. I think what I just wrote might be confusing, but oh wells. TODAY, my cellphone was VERY kind and the alarm didn't go off, on the day I needed to wake up earlier than usual. I was supposed to wake up at 5am to get ready since we were dressing up today, but today I looked at the clock to see "5:57am" thinking it was a joke or even a dream. I hella ran up in surprise to get ready. Fortunately, I was able to get ready and dress up in 40 minutes, leaving my house at 6:45am and thankfully not being late to 0 period. I was hella lonely during 0 period today though! 'cause Kristina almost didn't go to PE today but just decided to be tardy instead, but since she doesn't dress, she was outside walking. I was just doing weights by myself, boooo.

For the rest of the day, the other officers and I had to go to Sophomore Orientation every period so we missed the first 5-10 minutes of every class. Hopefully people won't be asking who the officers are since we introduced ourselves. It was funnn. Like I said in the other blog, my first period got switched to another teacher so when I walked in tardy, everyone was looking at me. For one, most of them never seen me in the class before, and my teacher didn't even know my name. She fed me a bunch of information way tooo fast, so I was pretty confused. The rest of her class was taking a test though. Luckily, Roxanne, David, and Jerremy are also in that class. I thought I'd be alone in that class. In Spanish, I missed a bunch of notes, and in Chemistry, my teacher was kinda mean today. Well, everyone wouldn't stop talking and it was getting annoying. We got to skip fourth period to talk about prom places with our advisors, and nothing really happened during Leadership. Just watched the whole orientation during 6th period. The end.

Today at lunch, we finally took pictures together, as in like our group, you know, PAMILIA! I miss it. Hey guys, I think we need to have a reunion. =)

EDIT: So like, I'm talking to Kevin Catap on AIM about something right now. It's kinda making me sad 'cause I don't know. But it's nice that I finally have someone to talk to 'it' about because I honestly don't know who else I can tell. Kevin, if you read this, whatever I tell you is confedential. But yeah, he keeps telling me to go for it, but it's hard if you know if the "it" doesn't seem interested. =/ Like, it's been saddening me these past few weeks because it's just been going downhill I guess. And hah, my guesses were right! It's always gotta be one of my friends... never me. Ugh.

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PLEASE pray for my cousin. I've been thinking about her a lot lately and like.. I know it's hopeless to do anything now as her time is running out, but prayer can still make miracles. Thanks.

Hi again.

So I wanted to sleep early, but I had a temptation to blog again!

Okay shit, I just forgot what I wanted to blog about. Hahaha.

Tomorrow's gonna be Sophomore Orientation in English classes. We, officers, get to skip like the first 5-10 minutes of each class to like introduce ourselves to everyone. We're planning to dress up, but I don't know what I'm gonna wear yet. Hahaha, and damn, my 1st period teacher got switched because I guess they were trying to reduce class sizes or whatever so Ms. Tam could have another Geometry class. So now, I have Ms. Crosgrove or something, I heard good things about her though, but I'll see tomorrow. However, on my first day of being in her class I'm going to be late. Bad impression yes?

Anyways, everyone's already anticipating Homecoming and it's like more than a month away. Who knows who I'm going to end up going with, or if I'm even going at all! But then, I was reading my magazine today that just came in the mail and my horoscope said on the 18th (it's the October issue), something good is gonna happen with love. Kinda creepy, 'cause that's the day of Homecoming!

I dislike my eczema. I can ALWAYS see people looking at it when they talk to me. -_- I'm not blind! I know it's gross, stop making me feel uglier than I already ammmmmmmmmm. Rawr.

I want a computer that has working sound/flash! Rawr. The laptop charger broke again.

Okay, I'm going to sleep now since I'm gonna wake up earlier to dress up for tomorrow. Byeeeee <3

I will bring praise.

Sooo, today was like the first day I was almost late to 0 period. I was hella powerwalking to the locker room. I hate how I have to walk so far.. I'd get dropped off next to the gym but I think the parking lot is still closed because of solar panels. But yeah, I still had like 3 minutes to spare before Mr. Zamudio came out. Today we worked out lower body, but there aren't even that many machines for that. Either that, or they work out the same thing.

I had 3 tests today, Spanish, Chemistry, and World History. I'd say I probably passed Spanish with flying colors and I probably got 1 or 2 wrong for Chemistry. World History test was waaay easier than I expected, probably cause I studied. 5th period, had some good laughs during SSR. Kristina was eating a cookie and we were like, THIS IS NOT S.S.E.! (Silent Sustained Eating). hahaha and yeah. 6th period, went to Computer Lab for English to take practice tests for CAHSEE. -_- I got like a 82% on the reading test and a 58% on the stupid Writing Conventions! I felt hella rushed because timing was running out and there was only 12 questions and I only got 7 right. Whooops, that was a screw up =(

Afterschool, I had a good 2 hour nap. Took advantage of not having so much homework, but now I just need to do my english homework. This always makes me hella laugh tho.

Ms. Bielski: So... AD is positive and BC is negative...
Some Girl: What are you talking about?!
Ms. Bielski: Do they not teach you about positive and negatives nowadays?!
Me: No! (being sarcastic)
Ms. Bielski: I cannot believe they don't teach you this stuff...
Danilo: Oh, they only taught that in the 1800s when you went to school...
Ms. Bielski: Excuse me young man but you're being very rude.


PS: Hi Kevin Catap! Yes, I read your blog. I read other peoples blogs and blog daily :D

You've got some nerve.

I hate how he says all this stupid ass shit like he knows squat but he doesn't fucking have a clue. He assumes shit, but doesn't know shit about me. Shut the hell up. YOU CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW TO SPELL MY NAME.

You have some nerve to even say we have no fucking money and that we're going to move out and go to an apartment. But on the other fucking side, you have some secret money you use to gamble, spoil your side of the family, buy unnecessary electronics like TVs, cars, and you can't even do the simplest thing but provide for your family just a roof over our head. Instead, you want more shit money to yourself and stuff your family back into a small apartment where we'll suffer to have our own privacy again. It utterly annoys the shit out of me how you can spoil your side of the family, and can barely even give your family shit. You always make mom give us money, provide us with what we need, and she's the one who is barely being paid compared to you. She's full of debts and bills and problems, and you're just there enjoying yourself.

And you're saying I have no hospitality to let your brother and wife come live here?! I understand that we need to provide a roof for them, but it makes no sense how you have brothers with bigger houses and extra rooms and you decide to let them stay at the smallest fcking house where the rooms are all occupied, crowded, and stuffed. You want me to get the fuck out of my room to let you sleep when you don't even come home until 5am, so it makes no sense to me. I have my reason for arguing back, because you really really really need to think about what you're saying for awhile. You say we can barely afford to support ourselves, so what makes you think you can afford 2 more people?! Bullshit.

Quit assuming shit, get the facts. You never cease to piss me off with the simplest words.

I'm sorry God for having to see my parent like this, but I really need to vent.


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ANYWAYS, my day today. When I woke up this morning, I was too exhausted to wake up so I woke up 15 minutes later than I was supposed to. I was hella dead during 0 period though, I could of just lied there on the ground and slept, but of course that's gross. First day of weight training! Me and Kristina decided to work out upper body today. I hella worked out my biceps today and now they're sore, and I worked abs out too. Tomorrow is lowerbody, yay work out my skinny legs! I wanna tone them moreee, hopefully they don't strain on me again.

The rest of my day was boring. I spent my lunch with Vivian because I decided to spend Monday lunches with her every week since we don't have classes together this year so we barely see each other. =( BFFs we shall remain! Also, on my way out of 5th period and to 6th period, I was walking with Rio then I took a step and like the floor I was about to walk on was lower than the ground I was walking on. Confusing yes, but anyways, right when I took a step on my left ankle, I hella like go down like I'm about to do a lunge. LOL WTF. I don't know why I did that, but now my ankle feels retarded it hurts. Whattthefuhhhhhh? Now I must go back to studying for my Chemistry and World History test. I also have a Spanish test, but I'm not that concerned about it. Alrighttttttttty, bye!

Flood our hearts.

Well, todaay was interesting. Today I woke up early to finish my laundry and my mom comes in asking me what I wanted to eat for breakfast, but I told her I would just come with her because she also wanted me to recycle the bag of cans because it was taking up too much space.

We went to recycle the cans, and the workers were pretty mean. I only ended up getting like $5.47 too, but whatever. Recycling is good! =) Bought food, then went home, I finished laundrying and then I got ready. I didn't get to go to church 'cause sister went out with friends and the rest of my family doesn't really go to church.

At around 2, I decided to hitch a ride to the (notso)Great Mall from my parents before they went fishing otherwise I would of had no ride. I should of just taken the bus there tho. I thought I'd be spending only 30 minutes alone waiting for everyone else to get there, but it took more like 2 HOURS. So I walked around, and went around in stores shopping + singing worship outloud. 8) I saw some stuff in stores, but decided not to get 'em to save money. Then, for an hour, I just sat down and settled down and used my phone to listen to music + go on MySpace/AIM. I was soooo bored. Then I found Ray at Marshall's, he was hiding then I had to chase him lmao. After, we went to hide from Matt and Russ, but then Matt sees us walking so we run into a shoe store but he finds us, FAIL. Hahaha, then idk what happened to Russ, but then Matt bought these key silencers and then we head to the Movie Theaters. It took hella long because stuff happened, but we decided to watch Tropic Thunder @ 5:30pm. We bought a ticket to Babylon AD to sneak in tho cause it was rated R. Tropic Thunder was pretty funny, had hella random stuff though! But the freakin' asian little boy made me laugh like crazy, I'd say what happened but I don't wanna ruin it for people who didn't watch it HAHAHA. But yeah, after, we went to the food court to chill then peoples left.

Later on, my sister picked me up then we went to eat sushi. Surprisingly for once, I didn't get hella full off of it but just right.

Other thoughts: Today my mom and I were talking about Archie. She asked me if he left a note or anything and I told her it said something about how he's happier in heaven now. She asked me, "How could he go to heaven if he killed himself?" It really got me thinking. 'cause Robbie asked me the same thing after YFC. I don't even remember what I said, but it's a good question. Killing is probably like the ultimate sin, that's the total opposite of loving which God wants us to do. But then again, God is the most forgiving person we'll ever know so who knows where Archie's heading... so just pray for him.

PS: BROOKE FRASER IN (about) 6 DAYS NOW!!! I'm so totally excited :3 I really hope I can snag a picture/autograph from her!! =)

Lift it Up

Today I spent some time with my sister and mother. First, we went to watch Mamma Mia at Great Mall, random I know. I wanted to watch it during the summer, but no one really wanted to watch it with me. When we got there, it was like only old people in there :3 The movie was alright at first, but the ending is WTF, I know I wasn't supposed to expect it... but it was seriously like wtf how gay to me. Afterrr, my sister and her boyfriend wanted to say hi so we waited for awhile then after went to Red Robin at Eastridge. It was alright, then we shopped around. I got some stuff and yeahhh, after that went to Target and went home. The end.

So much is happening with my relatives and families right now. My uncle and aunt from the Phillippines got approved to come to the USA, and turns out they're going to be living at my house until they get settled in and find a job. It's cool and all, but I'm gonna iffy about them living at my house. All our rooms are occupied, and too small. My parent's plan for now is to give them our master bedroom and my parents will sleep downstairs, OR my dad's gonna take my room since he works graveyard shift but that pisses me off because I don't want him to! What if I need my room to be by myself, there goes my only place where I have privacy! Geeez. So IDK, yeah I'm just bleh about this whole situation.

On the other hand, my cousin's life is slowing fading. She seems healthy, but she's really dying inside. =( She's going to be gone by next year... it makes me really want to cry. When I asked my mom and sister in the car if she was going to be gone for sure by next year and they said yes, I started crying a bit. God can take the life out of people when you least expect it. This cousin of mine took care of me and spoiled me when I was small, and to this day, I don't know why but we don't really talk. Just a "hi" if we see each other. =/ Never would I of expected to have her life end so short.. so now she has only like 2-3 months to live. It really, really, really is killing me right now thinking about it. Please pray for her and her family.... =(

We each have a destined journey.

Today at YFC was great. For once, the room and hallways were packed instead of an almost empty room. People who have been on "breaks" or haven't come in hella long came back, and it reminded me of old times. Not to mention even new faces, so putting those 2 together with the old gen and the usually go-ers, it was a great day. There was so many people, 80 people in fact (we counted), so we got to go have the meeting in Palvalkis Hall.

First, we played Props and it was hilarious. I'll upload on YouTube later, my internet is being slow. Boys won though, but they earned it. After, Big Brother had his final talk since he's moving to SoCal. It makes me hella sad to know he's not gonna be here after a few days. He won't be making fun of me and making me cry no more, or making me laugh... he truly defines "Big Brother". =) He's like the first OG YFCers who have announced they were leaving forreal. Who knows who's next?

My journey with YFC has been going on for 2 years now. I've had my highest points, and my lowest lows where I took a break from it hella long. But, each of us will have our journey with it. It's all in God's plan, he has a journey for each and every one of us destined in his books.

Big Bro's video made me sad toooo! =( Worship was great though, it kindof reminded me of the Hillsong concert. Let's just say this worship is way better than the other ones we've had lately. I still have a reason to worship. I lalalalalove worship. It's like the greatest ways we can just praise our God who gave up his son for us.

After YFC, just chilled with people then played dodgeball hahaha. I got out though because I was gonna catch the ball but then I dropped it, FAIL. -_-

But yeah, we made a goal to make sure the amount of people RISES rather than drops. So if you're reading this, GO NEXT WEEK! Pretty please =) I'm sure you'll have a great time!

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Other thoughts in my mind.... why does it take tragedy for us to love to our full potential? Who knows when the ones you love will be gone, and it'll be too late to say what you need to say or apologize. Will you only treat someone nice out of sympathy? Why can't we treat each other as if we were going to die the next day? Brothers and sisters, my eyes have been opened. I may not have known Archie, but how what happened to him is affecting my peers is affecting me also. It just breaks my heart to see such a young person go like that, it seriously has opened my eyes. You never know when your friend will be gone... let's all love to our full potential. You never know what can happen in a matter of seconds... =/

Decision made.

I have decided for sure, I will go back to Track this year. It may be a great challenge, because it happens at the same time as Trojan Olympics, so I'll have to fit track practices AND Trojan Olympics practices together. Not only that, but homework after that, then waking up super early for 0 period.

But it's a challenge I'm willing to take on. No backing down! Unless something serious turns up.

Hace sol.

Woooow, it's beeen heeeella hot these past few days! Seriously, why didn't we have this weather during summer vacation?

Anyways, yesterday and today was the first days I've woken up tired. Probably because of the concert. Especially today, I was supposed to wake up like at 5:30am but I ended up waking up at 6:10 =( It's okay tho. Got up, got ready, and right when I was about to have my sister drive me to school, my parents come home from "driving around". They told me last night they were just going driving, but somehow they magically appeared at Cache Creek. -_- I dislike how my parents complain we have no money and how we should move, but they still have the nerve to gamble, buy unnecessary electronics, and spend tons of money on cigarettes.

Anyways, 0 period is getting better. Kristina is next to me on the roll numbers =P We have to do 6 weeks of weight training before rugball! My calf still hurts. Last night I semi-strained it and it was gross looking. Cause you know how you can flex your calf? Well yeah, it got stuck like that so it was sticking out while it was in pain, and now it's hella stiff. Anyways, during 0 period, Mr. Zamudio made us carry tires from the pickleball/basketball courts all the way to the equipment room near the pool. I used it as an opportunity to work my arms instead of seeing it as a pain in the butt. Hahaha. 1st period, we did review and I hella need to study for the test tomorrow 'cause I don't even get some of it. 2nd period, espanol! Canicas. 3rd period, chemistry is always fun with michelle and mariel.. 4th period, boring ass world history, all I do is text or do my homework when I'm not supposed to. 5th period, I know the Homecoming Rally theme and spirit days but you can just wait to find out ;] It's kinda boring tho cause my commitee has nothing to do so I just sit there. 6th period, movie.

Hmm yeah, 2nd week of school is almost down. YFC tomorrow! It's Big Brother's last meeting. It makes me sad =( But GO!!! He's hella inspirational, and this is your last chance to really hear him out and what he has to say. It doesn't matter if you haven't been there in hella long or it's your first time, everyone is always welcome with open arms! =)






I think it's gone now. =/

Hillsong United Live.

Most freakin' legit night and worship I've ever had, hands down. I'm totally dead right now, and probably will be tomorrow, so I'm gonna go. I'll edit tomorrow for sure.



EDIT: So, yesterday I woke up not tired at all because I was sooo excited. During most of my classes, I was watching the clock waiting for it to ring, and trying to finish up my homework so I didn't have to do it later on. Soon enough, school was out and me and others head to Rio's car since she was our ride. We jammed to Hillsong, ate at In N Out, then got to Jubilee. There was already a line forming, and good thing we got there early. We had a decent spot in line, and Big Brother even brought his car over to our spot so we can sit. Most of the time, I was with Rio and Edison chillin' in the car. It was hella hot in the car! Good laughs!

Soon, I needed to pee but I tried going, but they said they were closing bathrooms until they opened the doors to let people in. I had to wait hezza long, but soon they opened the doors! Everyone starting cheering, and then soon I got in. First thing I did was buy a shirt. $25. But it was hella nice and I wanted it. It cost more than the ticket, but whatevs. =P Worth it. Went to the bathroooom! Then met up with everyone inside. We decided to stand in front of the stage. It took awhile to start, but then DAMN, when it started.

The anticipation. The Time Has Come intro, kasjdkahdashda I love it. The perfect song for the intro, just how it builds up all the energy. But damn, this was the best worship I ever had. I was hella singing my heart out, yelling, letting go letting God, like I was on cloud nine. And the room, I did feel the energy and love everywhere. It was amazing. This church was huge, and there were so many people just going crazy for God. They sang like all my favorite Hillsong songs, and there was this big portion of songs I didn't know but who cares. I was hella happy when Brooke came out and sang Desert Song and You'll Come. I still can't believe I saw Hillsong United's freakin faces live!!! Like, I've seen them in videos and listen to their songs like everyday, and just seeing and hearing them in person is so insane I thought I was dreaming!! It was so hot, and the concert didn't even feel like 3 hours. My feet may have hurt from standing, but my heart kept thirsting for more. Worship is a crazy experience, like you totally feel God's love. When I listen to their songs now, my mind is totally gonna flashback and go back to the moment when I was hearing it to the concert. =)

Another highlight of the night was when Hillsong was about to close up, but then Martin and Robs and Ryan started singing "whoahhhhooahohooahoaohahoahhhhhh!" from Your Name High and then everyone started copying. And then Joel from Hillsong came back out and was like, oh you guys know this song? And then we sang it! AWESOMEAWESOMEAWESOME. That's like our YFC song right there, we sing it at hella random times at random places.

Hella dope experience, if you missed out, you seriously got to buy a ticket next year if they come back. If you're having doubts, who cares buy it anyways, someone will buy it off you if you decide not to go.

BUT DAMN, September 2, the most LEGIT night of my life, and the best WORSHIP of my life.

Hillsong United <333333

Labor Day Weekend

My Labor Day weekend was alright. On Sunday morning, I had to get up early to get ready and pack some clothes since I was going to Madera (near Fresno, 2 hours away) to visit my aunt. All my other cousins and stuff were going and sleeping over, so I was kinda excited. It was a 2 hour drive, but it went by quickly since I was doing homework and stuff. I got my english story done =) My parents and I were the last ones to get to the house, so when we got there, we all loaded up cars and headed to my aunt's house. We visited it, and like... she really looks different! I was really glad to see her, but really inside my hurts my heart just to know one day she's gonna be gone. But you know what, I'm going to stop thinking that, you never know what can happen, all you just need to do is pray.

After that, all my cousins and I, and my niece, went to Boomer's. Go Karting was funnnn! It was my first time. Except, the first time, I was going hella fast then I turned and it was hella crowded, then this girl and her Go-kart wasn't even facing straight, she was sideways in the middle of the road so I couldn't go freakin' around her. So I was going hella fast and I collided to her hella badly now my neck hurts. -_- I kept going though, but then she just stopped there so they made everyone stop. But then luckily they let us go again! I kicked my cousins' asses! Even Nolan's, I was surprised. Hahaha, hella fun though, we should go one day! After that, we just played in the Arcade and stuff. All I really played was those basketball shooting games and Deal or No Deal. Deal or No Deal was hella funny/fun to play though, the most we won was only 75 tickets though. =P After, we went to eat at In N Out and went back to the house. We watched some zombie movie again, thanks to Nolan because he has some fascination with zombies. I got pretty bored, and we all slept on the floor in the living room. I went to sleep at 12am and then woke back up at 9amish, did my math homework, and went to sleep. My parents lied and said we were going to leave to go back home before noon, and I was hella waiting for it because I was supposed to go movies with my friends. We didn't even leave until 4pm, and I ended up leaving Catchphrase there damnit. It took too long to get home, so I just decided not to go 'cause it would of been late. But yeah, I had a fun and kinda boring weekend and my neck hurts like an ass.

HOWEVER, tomorrow is the Hillsong concert!!! I'm so excited to just sing my lungs out for the love of God, along with my brothers and sisters! Just to feel that love and praise being put together in one big heart and sent out to God, how great that will feel... =) LIFE'S GOOD.

Remember, smile! God loves you, and I do too! :D