6 Months Later

6 months later after it all began and this story is still continuing. It feels great to say we are back to being friends, but it is indeed dangerous. Figures... it is somewhat impossible just to remain "just friends" with no ties with someone you have a history with like everyone says. Especially in this situation. I never got closure, hence why my mind has not shut down the idea of the possibility. If you don't get closure, doesn't that leave things with open ties? It's not over? I don't know, my mind is filling with these silly things and I know I am sure damn playing with fire again. Why put my hand back in the fire that burned me bad the last time I did it? I don't know. My heart has this feeling, and to be honest, my heart is usually good at predicting these things. I'm still insistent that the way things ended wasn't because of the reason why I, as well as many others, thought it did. Deep down inside, I know there's another reason why. I'm still waiting for that explanation, and with that explanation is the only way I can shut down from my mind continuing wondering why things ended the way they did. Give me a peace of mind. The way we constantly caught eyes this past weekend insists that the feelings are still there. The way we look away once we accidentally meet eyes can only make me imagine what is going through your mind that moment we look away. The way you looked at me when we talked gave my heart these rush of emotions and flashbacks to the good times we shared. No, not from the attraction, but I could just feel the sense of curiosity between us two.

Call me stupid, but the door is still cracked open. It's not over. Not just yet. I believe in it. I'm not going to spend my whole life waiting on that moment for us to admit it to each other, but I do have a great instinct that one day, things just might come back together. Yup, it's easy to reignite a fire that never died, but the only reason why I'm not shutting out the idea completely is because I certainly have this instinct going off in my head that I've had since the moment you tried to blow the fire out... that things didn't play out the way they were supposed to. It's supposed to play out another way. The way things ended was not how we wanted it to..

it's not over....