stream of consiousness

so in english today, we did something called a "stream of consiousness" where we write EVERYTHING in our mind, even if it includes the "uhh..." parts. it totally feels good, when i did it, it feels like a ton was lifted from my head. so... here i go!

it's 10:08pm right now. i feel like sleeping but at the same time i keep getting distracted. what am i going to wear tomorrow? most of the clothes i want to wear are thin and it's going to be cold tomorrow. everytime i try to dress hella warm it ends up being not so cold that day and then the next day it is cold. umm... losing train of thought! elections are coming soon again... already... i wonder who's gonna run against me. i wonder if i'll win again. this time for sure i'll vote for who i think is a better leader. well i did that last time but i kind of regret some votes i made. ahhh, losing it again. my dad just sneezed. my sister sneezes the weirdest out of my family. he's a cutayy =) haha. someones starting to hella annoy me. she talks about changes a lot in other people but forreal she has HELLALALALALA changed too. in a horrible way. uhhh.. what the heck is storytellers. people are always talking about it but i don't know what it is. umm... i still need to pick what i'm going to wear tomorrow. i have another meeting tomorrow and i have to stamp tickets again tomorrow afterschool. lol today i kept messing up. who knew stamping could be so hard. oh how i wish... when will it be me? i've been wondering that for the longest time. i hope she's not sucking up to people because it hella seems like she is ever since she decided she was gonna yeah. ew... stop getting so close to her -____- uhh uhhh... it's 10:11 now. i wonder how long i'm going to type. i feel like ... okay i forgot. my fingers hurt. no backspacing allowed. okay, i was gonna say how long this blog will be. i don't know if we're really meant to be friends anymore.. she only talks to me when she needs something and when she seeks me for advice or help she gives me negative responses or a hella bad attitude. i hate that, i try to put an effort into helping you and you give me shit? well anyways trojan olympics is coming up. our theme is )@#*@*%#^#(&%(&$(#&$# and i wonder if someone will try and count how many characters that was and try to guess it, but really that has nothing to do with it. i'm totally hyped up for it, i'm confident but then again we're freshmen and freshmen never win. but i'm down that it's gonna be fun. talent show is coming up next friday. i wonder if i have to leave confirmation again for it. but i dont want to because they're gonna get pissed again >:( ugh.. i know it should be my #1 priority but i have hella important stuff to do too you know? i need to commit to both. i got myself into the mess and i will get myself OUT. why do i feel like michelle deleon and vivian nguyen are like my only "friends" right now. everyone else, idk. it's not the same anymore. i feel like i'm not part of the pamilia anymore. i don't feel like i fit it. that's why i go seek other friends. i dont know. i hate cliques, HATE HATE HATE. there's always smaller cliques in cliques and it pisses me off. some guy invaded our table out of no where today but he's pretty cute. wth is his name though?! hahaha. everyone was talking about sadies today. brian trinh ate all my cheerios in biology today, that jerk. he always copies and gets a better grade than everyone. hella not fair! i need sleep. sleep sleep sleep. my wrist is starting to hurt. i hope my eye vision didnt go down, because it feels like it is. i need to give these tickets to maureen tomorrow... and HOPEFULLY get my mittens back from rio after more than a month already. friday nights are the best. my sister gave me more crap to give to people. it kinda ticks me off. i'm annoyed of so many people, i'm even annoyed of myself. 10:17pm. my sisters are in the bathroom talking to each other. i'm done, i wonder how i'll feel after i finish this.